by Sander Tams
6. December 2009 16:11
Tonight is the last time I am sleeping here in ShiPai at Joni's house. At least for now. (I heard it might be possible to go back, so I hope that a future with that as a possibility can make it more easy for me to say goodbye.)
Actually, I was supposed to move today, but since I went to The Coming of Age Ceremony at Taipei Confucius Temple (which was a rotary event that put me in a rather negative mood to say it briefly), I was quite busy all day and am just packing the final stuff. As I do so, I suddenly feel the same as when I went off from Denmark. An feeling of unrealism I cannot really explain. After all, I am not really able to fully comprehend what it means for me that tomorrow I will be living in another home and therefore wont see Joni everyday - also Alex the few times he's actually around at the same time as me - for for that matter, Christy who's speaking with Joni and me through Skype every once in a while.
She's also moving tomorrow, actually, to another German host family.
Again, I don't really feel as sad I one could imagine. Or, sad at all for that matter. Maybe I am actually a cynic now. What a strange thing this exchange thing does to me.
Now, me packing the stuff is making me realise more and more what this means to me, so I think I am going to go into the living room and talk a bit more with the folks as this is after all a last chance for a long while, if not forever, to do that.